Smothered Hope
Great song, but unfortunately that is not the subject of this blog.
2am was the time I woke up. Now 2 hours and 14 minutes later I sit here fully know that my hope has been smothered. I have to work today. My shift starts at 6:45. Due to my timely routine of nursing Erik, eating, getting ready, and again nursing Erik, it actually take me almost an hour and a half to get ready; thankfully he is a light eater first thing in the morning. Today is going to be difficult.
Work doesn't drag by as badly as some might think. 11:30am-12:30 pm, and 2:00pm-3:00pm are the sucky never ending, hour of nothingness.
54 minutes till my alarm clockS will be going off. Wooh!
Erik has been sleeping through the night now and then. The first time he did it was about a week and a half ago after a long evening at the local fair. Poor little guy was wiped out. He had a blast though and man, he loved the lights on all the rides!
I've got a nice short week this week, then the weekend. Saturday I am meeting Nicole & family, and Teah & possible family at Applebees for a nice dinner. It will be so nice to see everyone at once... I've been looking forward to it for awhile now!
I have not the slightest clue why I could not get back to sleep. Well, ok, truthfully it is probably several things. My mom and her new job training... she has been unemployed long enough and its time she got her shit together. Normally this would be none of my business but I have made it my business. When my grandmother is in the condition she is and complains about the things she does, it makes me extremely unhappy with my mothers lack of motivation. God damn, you an effin' adult, act it. I also worry about finances, even though we are doing fine. We get by check it check but everything gets paid for, and as always Erik comes first.
Oooh, my little Erik. He is simply amazing. I never thought I would be able to love one person so much, so deeply and he doesn't even speak yet. Although he has been saying Uma for awhile and the other afternoon he said hi. It was more of a akagoogaakee. hi. goohahke. It was cute, lol, I hope someone gets a kick out of my baby talk break down!!!!
Well. I think I might just get a jump start on the morning and getting ready. I already know its going to suck so I might as well prepare myself for that as best as possible.
2am was the time I woke up. Now 2 hours and 14 minutes later I sit here fully know that my hope has been smothered. I have to work today. My shift starts at 6:45. Due to my timely routine of nursing Erik, eating, getting ready, and again nursing Erik, it actually take me almost an hour and a half to get ready; thankfully he is a light eater first thing in the morning. Today is going to be difficult.
Work doesn't drag by as badly as some might think. 11:30am-12:30 pm, and 2:00pm-3:00pm are the sucky never ending, hour of nothingness.
54 minutes till my alarm clockS will be going off. Wooh!
Erik has been sleeping through the night now and then. The first time he did it was about a week and a half ago after a long evening at the local fair. Poor little guy was wiped out. He had a blast though and man, he loved the lights on all the rides!
I've got a nice short week this week, then the weekend. Saturday I am meeting Nicole & family, and Teah & possible family at Applebees for a nice dinner. It will be so nice to see everyone at once... I've been looking forward to it for awhile now!
I have not the slightest clue why I could not get back to sleep. Well, ok, truthfully it is probably several things. My mom and her new job training... she has been unemployed long enough and its time she got her shit together. Normally this would be none of my business but I have made it my business. When my grandmother is in the condition she is and complains about the things she does, it makes me extremely unhappy with my mothers lack of motivation. God damn, you an effin' adult, act it. I also worry about finances, even though we are doing fine. We get by check it check but everything gets paid for, and as always Erik comes first.
Oooh, my little Erik. He is simply amazing. I never thought I would be able to love one person so much, so deeply and he doesn't even speak yet. Although he has been saying Uma for awhile and the other afternoon he said hi. It was more of a akagoogaakee. hi. goohahke. It was cute, lol, I hope someone gets a kick out of my baby talk break down!!!!
Well. I think I might just get a jump start on the morning and getting ready. I already know its going to suck so I might as well prepare myself for that as best as possible.
Labels: Applebees, Erik, finances, metal mama, sleep deprived, Sleepless, talking, work, worries
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