Feelings & Todays Events
I finally broke down and told Rich how I feel last night. I'm terrified of Antenatal Depression, but I think that might be part of my problem lately. I have read that is is very common and is diagnosed in about 10%-12% of pregnancies. There are lots of different ways to treat it, yes, some of those ways are with medications; which also scares me. I've just been finding it difficult to get super excited about having this baby.I feel bad for feeling the way I do. I feel like it makes me a bad expectant mother. I know my gray clouds will pass, it just really sucks feeling like this. I'm also terrified that I am going to love Erik so much more than this child... A lot of my friend's of 2 or more children have told me that it's ok to feel that way because once I have the baby my love will grow at that very moment and I will love Erik and this baby just the same.
I am going to Planned Parenthood today. Not really where I want to spend my time, but I know it will get us on WIC quicker and I will get right in for an ultrasound and all that with my OB.
My OB is another thing I am terrified about. When I had Erik I was living in Rutland and planned and did successfully deliver in Keene NH, because I wanted and HAD TO HAVE my Dr., Dr. Malcolm McKenzie. When Erik was about 1-1 1/2 Dr. Mac left to study advanced surgical techniques and is no longer an OB at the Keene Hospital. :( My world feels crushed. I know I will be delivering at the same hospital, I just don't know who I want for my OB. Maybe I will switch and just have a midwife. I really like one of the ones I met with last time.
Oiiiii!
Busy day today! I should be a sweetheart and tackle the monstrosity of dishes that are piled in my sink.
Tonight I am going to Sheena's house and we are going to have snacks and watch a Cary Grant movie... No idea what I am bringing but we are going to try and watch all his movies over the period of a long, long time.
I guess I should be getting off here and finding my motivation.
Good day all!
I am going to Planned Parenthood today. Not really where I want to spend my time, but I know it will get us on WIC quicker and I will get right in for an ultrasound and all that with my OB.
My OB is another thing I am terrified about. When I had Erik I was living in Rutland and planned and did successfully deliver in Keene NH, because I wanted and HAD TO HAVE my Dr., Dr. Malcolm McKenzie. When Erik was about 1-1 1/2 Dr. Mac left to study advanced surgical techniques and is no longer an OB at the Keene Hospital. :( My world feels crushed. I know I will be delivering at the same hospital, I just don't know who I want for my OB. Maybe I will switch and just have a midwife. I really like one of the ones I met with last time.
Oiiiii!
Busy day today! I should be a sweetheart and tackle the monstrosity of dishes that are piled in my sink.
Tonight I am going to Sheena's house and we are going to have snacks and watch a Cary Grant movie... No idea what I am bringing but we are going to try and watch all his movies over the period of a long, long time.
I guess I should be getting off here and finding my motivation.
Good day all!
Labels: Antenatal Depression, Cary Grant, dishes, Erik, midwife, motivation, OB, pregnancy, Sheena
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