Metal Mama

I have not had the time or ability to blog much lately. Morning sickness this time around has really had a firm grip on me.

Some days are better than others and some are much better than others. I am still taking Zofran, it helps most of the time. I am not eating a lot, and when I do eat it usually finds an inconvenient time to come back up. Some days I don't want to go out even. I just feel that sick and actually have a little anxiety going on regarding will I get sick in a store, will I be able to make it to a bathroom, will I be able to eat later, I wonder what will taste good, I can't wait to not feel sick so I can eat.

I felt alright for a few days and have been up puking my brains out since about 4 am.

Ugh. I hope this goes away soon so I can start to enjoy this pregnancy.

Labels: anxiety, morning sickness, Zofran

Friday, my dearest decided I needed to see a Dr. My stomach had been killing me for nearly a week. It was incredibly difficult to eat or do anything. I pretty much felt like death.

The very kind, but short staffed hospital told me what I already know. You are pregnant and have morning sickness. DUH!

With the stating of the obvious I did learn a few very interesting things about morning sickness. Instead of prenatal vitamins I should take 400-800mcg of Folic Acid because of the amount of Iron in prenatal vitamins, it can cause nausea and vomiting. Once the morning sickness subsides then you can resume prenatal vitamins.
I also learned hat taking B6 3 times a day can counter the nausea and vomiting. 25 mg in the am, 25 mg, and 50 mg at bed time. Take with a small snack (and it's ok to cut a 50mg tab).

A financial fact I learned is that WalMart charges $241.00 for 10 Zofran (what the Dr. prescribed me for my nausea & vomiting). I'm thankful generic drugs exist!


CLOTH DIAPERS! Yes, I'm thinking about it again. Strongly thinking about it. I have a very close friend who has had much happiness and success with it and she has been answering a lot of my questions. She linked me to www.greenmountaindiapers.com Yes, located right in Vermont! I have seen a lot of diapers I like but am still not sure about prefolds vs. all in ones. We'll see. I still have quite awhile to decide! I know when I make an order though I am going to want to get Erik some cloth training pants... They are just too cute!

I have a dinner date with Erik on Wednesday. Not sure what or where yet. The weather will most likely be the deciding factor. It has been so nice lately I am sure the snow gods are going to dump a big load on us sometime this month.This weather is just too good to be true. My work schedule was definitely in my favor this week. I get a nice long weekend with Erik! I can't wait. Hopefully it will be nice enough out that we can go to the park or a playground.

Labels: cloth diapers, Erik, links, medicine, metal mama, morning sickness, weather

I finally broke down and told Rich how I feel last night. I'm terrified of Antenatal Depression, but I think that might be part of my problem lately. I have read that is is very common and is diagnosed in about 10%-12% of pregnancies. There are lots of different ways to treat it, yes, some of those ways are with medications; which also scares me. I've just been finding it difficult to get super excited about having this baby.I feel bad for feeling the way I do. I feel like it makes me a bad expectant mother. I know my gray clouds will pass, it just really sucks feeling like this. I'm also terrified that I am going to love Erik so much more than this child... A lot of my friend's of 2 or more children have told me that it's ok to feel that way because once I have the baby my love will grow at that very moment and I will love Erik and this baby just the same.

I am going to Planned Parenthood today. Not really where I want to spend my time, but I know it will get us on WIC quicker and I will get right in for an ultrasound and all that with my OB.

My OB is another thing I am terrified about. When I had Erik I was living in Rutland and planned and did successfully deliver in Keene NH, because I wanted and HAD TO HAVE my Dr., Dr. Malcolm McKenzie. When Erik was about 1-1 1/2 Dr. Mac left to study advanced surgical techniques and is no longer an OB at the Keene Hospital. :( My world feels crushed. I know I will be delivering at the same hospital, I just don't know who I want for my OB. Maybe I will switch and just have a midwife. I really like one of the ones I met with last time.

Oiiiii!

Busy day today! I should be a sweetheart and tackle the monstrosity of dishes that are piled in my sink.

Tonight I am going to Sheena's house and we are going to have snacks and watch a Cary Grant movie... No idea what I am bringing but we are going to try and watch all his movies over the period of a long, long time.

I guess I should be getting off here and finding my motivation.

Good day all!

Labels: Antenatal Depression, Cary Grant, dishes, Erik, midwife, motivation, OB, pregnancy, Sheena

My poor stomach just couldn't catch a break yesterday. Rich and I ate dinner and then I brought him to play pool and I came right home cause I felt like was going to puke pools of fire. Dinner tasted so good, and smelled up the entire house. Ug. Figures, just my luck. I came home and just vegged. I did absolutely nothing that was of being productive. I stayed home until I felt like I could go out for a bit, big mistake that was. I definitely ate my bitch flakes this morning. LOL.

That's the one big thing I absolutely hate about me being pregnant. The hormones. Sometimes I am so happy. Sometimes I want to scream in Rich's face and just be alone. Honestly, I feel borderline manic, and I don't like it.

I woke up to an incoming text from my son's father. "Cora: what happened to all of the clothes I sent down with Erik?" Well I reply with an explanation because I always feel like I have to defend myself to Skot cause he is always out searching for prey. I tell him that Erik made lots of messes this weekend and every time we left the house practically warranted a clothing change because he just had to jump in the puddles out side the apartment. I get a text back from Erik's father, "He's 2; messes need no explanation lol. That IS the explanation: he is 2 lol." Well aren't we a rocket scientist...... If you know he is 2 and messes are inevitable why the hell comne down on me? Fucker.

Grrrrrrrrr. His father's way of being drives me right up a fucking wall.

Labels: Erik messes, experience, metal mama, pregnant, Rich

I am not sure if it's my own little stupid version of morning sickness of sorts, or a stomach bug, however I am sick of it and so ready to be done with it.

The last few days I feel horribly naseous when I wake up. It goes away shortly before I eat and I eat and oh boy, it's back again. It really sucks.

Erik went to bed like a perfect angel last night. We popped in his new Elmo movie and he was out in 21 minutes. I did have to pop him into his own bed after but still. He slept the whole night which was a little shocking as he has this terrible, dry cough.

He woke up in great spirits and demanded Elmo again so I put in his movie where we left off last night.

I think it's time for us to get some breakfast in our bellies and hit the town. We need to go to the store, library, and if it's nice I'd love to go for a walk.

Last night we had our neighbors Jason and his daughter Ree over for dinner. We had tacos. Rich prepared a fabulous and quick meal for us all as Ree had to go home so she could go to bed because she had school today. I think Erik really enjoyed having a friend over. I know Rich enjoyed it. It made cooking so much easier for him.

Yesterday Erik also helped me fold a load of laundry. He did such a good job and was so proud of himself. Hmmmm. Mommy like!

Labels: cough, dinner, Elmo food, laundry, metal mama, neighbors, sleep