Metal Mama

Tomorrow at this time, I will know if I will be the mother of a baby boy, or baby girl!!!

Appt. 2:15pm, have another one right after that, but I will be home tonight and update. PROMISE!

Labels: appt., boys, gender, girls, metal mama, ultra sound

3 year dental check up today. I'm about to do something to my hair and head out in this lovely wet weather.

The last few times Erik has been here we've been watching Sid the Science Kid: Feeling Good Inside & Out. There is a segment where they talk about taking care of your teeth, why it's important, and they even pretend to play dentist. Last year Erik's appt. went well I just hope we can keep "Sid Kid" in mind today when we're there cause I assume they are going to want to do more than just poke around and feel his teeth!

Here's to a good day, especially since I'm making the drive solo... last time I did that, the outcome was less than desirable.

Labels: dentist, metal mama, milestones, movies, Sid the Science Kid

Last night we spent the evening at Benning Street. Rich had a league singles shoot out. He came in 3rd. I am so proud of him. It was a really long night. I don't know at what hour we actually got home I just know that I was exhausted and feeling sick.... I just had to have boneless buffalo wings. He shot some amazing games, started his night and ended his night playing his friend Cory who is around the same skill level so their games are always very intense and back and forth until the end.

3rd's better than 4th, and I don't think anyone on his team could have shot better than him, against the people he did, last night.

I've been wanting to include more pics with my blogs, but I have no nice digital camera anymore :(, and my cell phone is.... ok, it suffices, but lately I've been thankful to the www. for all my image findings. I could resist using this to go along with a pool post. I strongly believe Poolhall Junkies is the best pool movie I have ever seen (yes, I have seen The Color of Money), seriously. Even if you don't like pool it's a great movie! If you can ever find it, watch it!

This late morning I am now off grocery shopping. We're trying to get a little more out of our money these days. We're getting by fine since I quit one of my jobs, things are just tighter. Rich and I had a wonderful discussion on our way to Benning Street yesterday, eliminating WalMart from the places we purchase!!!

I HATE WALMART, I really do. I've had some major issues with things I've bough there. From clothing, to perishables.... YUCK. I just hate it. And I really hate that one of the things on the label of their peanut butter that it may contain is traces of anchovies. Yes, anchovies..... PB & CHOVIES. VOMIT!

I've put the bird in his eat about co-op shopping and buying more in bulk.... I think it's a slow go, but a go none the less. :-)

Link for Benning Street: http://www.benningstreet.com/

Labels: anti-WalMart, green, grocery shopping, links, metal mama, movies, pool

*throw horns up* today for Dio!


A short battle with stomach cancer. The music industry lost a great legend yesterday. RIP RONNIE DIO.

Labels: celeb death, metal, metal mama, Ronnie Dio

I can't wait to start making all kinds of cute little hats for this little bean.... It wasn't something I picked up until after I had Erik... Erik still gets hats of course, it just takes a little while to make a bigger, longer, perhaps I will pick up some nice yarns when we find out the sex and get my knit on!

Labels: crafts, creative, hat, knitting, metal mama

18... hmmm... the age you have to be to be considered, legally, an adult.

I just realized as I was about to get off the computer that I am 18 weeks today. 2 more weeks and I am half way there!!!!

Labels: metal mama, pregnancy, week by week

This weekend has been fantastic.

Today I continued feeling well for the most part. I took the day in baby steps (yes, I have watched "What About Bob?" recently) and was overall very productive.

I was able to clean the living room and start laundry this morning. Then I took some time for me, had some toast and relaxed. I got ready and went out to a few yard sales and didn't find anything today, so I decided this morning would be the perfect morning to hit up this new thrift store here called TLC Family Thrift Store, I believe. Anyways, I LOVE IT! All the clothes that they had in there were either new with the tags still on it, or you swore it should still have a tag. The prices were great. I spent $11.00 on two t-shirts for Erik and a pair of nice khaki shorts, and two infant sleepers and an adorable onesie. I was impressed, the condition of these clothes, it's just great!

I came home... Started feeling not so hot but I just relaxed... I took it easy. Rich told me I had been so busy and productive to, "take the rest of the day off," lol, he's such a sweetie! He is always thinking of me. Anyhow. I did have to cave under pressure today and venture to KMart and buy some new flops... it's summer, flip flops are a must. I was really hoping to be able to wait until I had the time and cash when I was in Rutland and stop in to Old Navy. Two years ago I went in one day and got 2 pairs of flops for $5 and I would still have one pair if I didn't lose the left one. Anyhow. I spent $3.99 and got some basic black but cutesy flops.

Labels: cleaning, deals, KMart, metal mama, movies, Old Navy, Rich, thrift store, weekend

The last two days have been really good days for me. I've been doing things as I can, at my own pace, and trying my absolute hardest not to stress about things, especially how little I am able to eat. Instead I've been looking at every little thing as a small accomplishment... It makes me feel better and I have been a lot happier. Last night before bed I started feeling a little sickly, same tonight, but I've had long, filled, productive days. I am proud of myself.

I still have not been eating a lot but I am making progress and that is what is important.

12 days until Rich and I find out the sex of the little one in me. 12 days and we will know what the last member of our family will be. I am so excited. I honestly really don't care what is it... A boy would be great, we each have one, and together we would have one.... We have tons, and tons of boy stuff.... but a little girl would be great to... just to have one of each... Rich can have a daddy's girl and things would still be perfect. We'll see. 12 days and counting.

Erik went for a hike with his daddy in Rutland today. Erik took his bug collection cup and collected a beetle of sorts I am told. Erik says it has "big chompers," , man, he cracks me up! He is such a funny kid... He definitely has a wonderful sense of humor.

Speaking of special little boys, today I got to actually met Rich's son, Riley. He's adorable. I hope things are finally starting to turn around for Rich in this situation. Yesterday at the court house he got to see Riley for the first time in about a year and a half... :( Sad I know, but completely beyond our control, unfortunately. Today Jessica and I got to chat though... I think it was all faking nice, due to being scared from court... either way, being civil is being civil. Hopefully these are baby steps in the right directions that we all need to be going.

A site I've been using A LOT lately is http://www.cozi.com It's neat. It's got lots of helpful articles from finance, to home organization to quick and delicious sounding dinners. I seriously suggest creating an account and playing with the calendar and the reminders you can have e-mailed or text to you... You can even text yourself your grocery list! I am in love with how simple it is to use and navigate, yet it can do so much for you! Check it out, it's great, I promise!

Labels: Erik, Hyperemesis Gravidarum, metal mama, Riley, ultra sound, web site

So yesterday morning I had an appt to see if since quitting 1 of my jobs I might qualify for state insurance, especially now that I know there is something wrong with me and am more than likely going to be put on medications for it.

I got sick at the office where my appt. was. Talk about embarrassing. It's bad enough that the day before when we were there to get all my forms I needed to fill out that I thought I was going to hurl because the two women that were in there smelled so bad. At first I thought I must have been crazy, but the smell was even bothersome to Rich.

Anyhow yesterday I spent a chunk of my morning in a small ass office nauseous as hell which eventually led to me sprinting to the bathroom just to puke in an equally disgusting toilet. Not that anything will ever, in my entire life, compare to the grossness of my experience the day of Erik's party. Anyhow... That's all for now. More to come later... Mentally preparing for seeing Rich's wretched ex at the court house.

Labels: Hyperemesis Gravidarum, insurance, metal mama, nausea

I had a Dr.'s appointment today. I wasn't prepare to go in and have my brain absorb a whole new world of knowledge about this thing called Hyperemesis.

"Hyperemesis gravidarum (HG) is a severe form of nausea and vomiting in pregnancy. It is generally described as unrelenting, excessive pregnancy-related nausea and/or vomiting that prevents adequate intake of food and fluids. If severe and/or inadequately treated, it is typically associated with:

* loss of greater than 5% of pre-pregnancy body weight (usually over 10%)
* dehydration and production of ketones
* nutritional deficiencies
* metabolic imbalances
* difficulty with daily activities"



As written on http://www.helpher.org a site I strongly recommend visiting. I have not been able to pull myself away.


It's nice having some answers now... but now I feel like I am stuck in this whole new world of emotions, symptoms, and feelings all alone.

This is just one more hurdle in life that I will apparently be tracking here.

nausea

Labels: Hyperemesis Gravidarum, morning sickness, nausea, pregnancy, vomitting

Tuesday, May 11th, 2010 -- Although you might be quite busy at work, running errands or visiting with friends today, you'll still need to take care of some domestic chores. Mercury's three-week retrograde period in your 4th House of Home and Family may have raised the bar of expectations on what others think you should be doing outside of work. Even if your energy is spread thin, make time to fulfill your personal obligations.

Labels: horoscope

I think it's a good thing but I think it's going to drive me crazy. I am the kind of person that feels most people need a job simply for the structure of routine if provides. I said MOST people. Some people are naturally able to find the structure of routine without said routine including regular 6-10 hour outings to a place which most dread going in the first place... so said routine ends up making one miserable right?

Odd I guess. I've had 2 conversations recently, one with my friend Heather and the other with Rich about looking for a completely new job. I've been working the the developmentally disabled and elderly for almost 8 years now. I love helping people and I would love to continue to help people but I remember two women that I worked with when I lived in Rutland, Flora and Ester. They were resident aides, like myself, except they were in they're late 60's and miserable and bitchy, always complaining about the aches and pains, yet they were aides.... I don't want to be like that. I am the only one that has the ability to change that.

I feel very depressed and "blah" today, knowing that the decision ultimately lies in someone else's hands of when I will have my "structure" back in my life.

I created an account on snagajob.com yesterday, made a few craigslist inquiries, I'm going to apply to the Southern Vermont Counsel on Aging, as well as D.H.M.C for a Clinical Secretary. Both application processes are semi-tedious, more D.H.M.C than the Counsel on Aging.

I HATE STARTING TOO MANY PARAGRAPHS IN A ROW WITH "I".

Feeling pretty nauseous today, haven't been sick yet, but the day is far from over.

Perhaps getting my lazy rear motivated and doing some housework will make me feel accomplished and slightly better about myself. Rolling over and not waking up until I feel better sounds fabulous as well.

Tomorrow I have an appt. with the Dr. and therapist that run the Pregnancy Wellness Program at my hospital. I think its ironic timing, but definitely much needed, and I am glad I am feeling better about going and talking to her.

Here's to *PRODUCTIVITY*.

Labels: appt., depressed, mental, unemployed, web site, work

I quit my job tonight. I went in to find a nice lengthy write up all um. Bullshit. I cannot find the time or semi-appropriate words to express myself. It's been awhile coming now. I'm just discouraged that I quit.... on the spot just quit. I went down to my Director of Nursing's office and asked her if it would be possible to discuss it... and it went terrible, but really it's a godsend I believe. It's making it crunch time for me to do what I already should have been doing. Now, not in order of priority I'm a 26 year old mama of a 3 year old, who is due in October, trying to plan our wedding, and hoping to become a little greener in the mist of everything else, while looking for a new job ASAP!

I kinda feel like a loser, but I'm told "keep your chin up, beautiful!"

Labels: asap, loser, quit, unemployed, work

Erik turned 3! It is such a sweet yet sad experience. He's my baby, he's growing up so fast, 3 going on 23?

I was terribly sick, ALL DAY. It started with me getting sick @ Erik's party, which led to 4 pull over's on the way home, which then led to my tired behind being up puking until 3am. Did I mention Erik also puked all over our bed?

I was so tired from puking, so sore, so sick, sick of being sick. I HAD to take my Zofran. I really didn't want to since my last horrid experience with the side effects.

Rich was a doll. He dealt with the puke-y blankets and doing all the puke-y laundry. He tended to my sick butt, and managed to drag his overtired butt out of bed @ 6am to get Erik breakfast, and myself (a platter of fruit and 2 glasses of water for us sickly red heads).He coocked, he cleaned, he is my superman! Thanks to my lovely Zofran I was out of it all day long and had the worst head ache in the world.

Thankfully, Erik was a wonderful little angel yesterday. He played so nicely and quietly in out rooms (which are connected) so mommy could sleep off her headache and rest. He would frequently come in and was actually on me. "Mommy, drink water, drink water!" He is the sweetest little boy in the world. I <3 him so much!

Slowly. I am getting more and more excited about being pregnant. Some days it's really hard to when you are sick, oh say 10 times in 8 hours... days like that it's just too much.

My boys gave me the greatest gift possible this year and simply showed mommy how much they really love me! Thank you Erik and Rich! I love you both more than words can express, you two light up my life and make my world complete!