Depressed & Hating This Effin' House.
I've got the most wonderful little boy in the world so why can't I just be happy? He makes my life complete and shows my such love and joy, I never thought all of this would be possible.
Then there is the nasty & depressing battle that occurs in my head everyday. I HATE THIS FUCKING HOUSE.
I hate living here. I hate living with another parent. I hate always feeling obligated to interact with others when I don't really want to. I hate not having time for myself. I hate working my ass off and it going unnoticed. I hate this awful place never being clean.
It makes me absolutely sick to my stomach that I shop on the internet for foam pads so my child can play on the floor. The carpet in this house is so fucking gross, nasty and dirty -YUCK- then there are the lovely hardwood floors, and with Erik liking to head butt things I don't really want him doing that.
Ug. Today is one of those days that I just wish the Earth would swallow me whole and that Erik could come to so that when I get over myself I will have a sweet little someone to make it all better!
Then there is the nasty & depressing battle that occurs in my head everyday. I HATE THIS FUCKING HOUSE.
I hate living here. I hate living with another parent. I hate always feeling obligated to interact with others when I don't really want to. I hate not having time for myself. I hate working my ass off and it going unnoticed. I hate this awful place never being clean.
It makes me absolutely sick to my stomach that I shop on the internet for foam pads so my child can play on the floor. The carpet in this house is so fucking gross, nasty and dirty -YUCK- then there are the lovely hardwood floors, and with Erik liking to head butt things I don't really want him doing that.
Ug. Today is one of those days that I just wish the Earth would swallow me whole and that Erik could come to so that when I get over myself I will have a sweet little someone to make it all better!
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